I show myself as a strong lady from outside however some place inside, I am broken and the entire credit goes to the man for whom I cleared out my surname, home, guardians and everything. In any case, he didn’t take a moment to toss me out of his life as though I never existed for him and that too for an insignificant reason after which he has lost all regard and love that I had in my heart for him.
I would prefer not to uncover my personality for evident reasons and here I am will portray an appalling story of my life which influences me to shudder even today after such a large number of years. It was spring time and everything looked delightful in view of wonderful climate as well as for the reason that my wedding was settled. He was profoundly taught and utilized on a decent post in a MNC. All my relatives discovered him excessively Sanskaari as he touched their feet and talked pleasantly to them when he went to our home out of the blue to see me.
He was the man whom nobody could reject and I likewise gave my assent, thinking that I was so fortunate to get a flawless life accomplice like him. He likewise found no motivation to dismiss me lastly we got connected with following seven days.
Marriage was planned to happen following two months as there was no promising date (shubh muhurt) for the following eight months. Time was less and a considerable measure of arrangements were to be made. There would be not really any young lady who doesn’t love shopping and I was damn energized as I was going for shopping every day. From picking my most loved lehenga to booking parlor for marriage cosmetics, I cherished the entire parcel. Acquiring coordinating adornments and bangles with each outfit and the sparkling precious stone gems set energized me deeply. So, this period amongst engagement and marriage was no not as much as a fantasy life for me and I was getting a charge out of all of it.
Finally the huge day of wedding came! I was resembling a holy messenger from the paradise in the exquisite red lehenga and he couldn’t take his eyes off me as I went to the set where Jaimala service was booked to occur. On the off chance that you think about this function, it’s small interesting as when lady of the hour tries to influence prepare to wear the festoon, his companions and relatives lift him noticeable all around to make it troublesome for the lady and the other way around.
At long last we got marry following every one of the ceremonies and traditions and afterward came the minute for which each couple holds up tensely. Truly, it’s the principal night!
Simple idea of it had been stimulating me as far back as our engagement and even I didn’t know how frequently I had encountered a helping of energy blended with become flushed exciting me from inside when I envisioned him touching me out of the blue.
I was sitting tight for him in our room which had a pleasant botanical design and red flower petals were adding beauty to white bed sheet. Did I say white bed sheet? Is it safe to say that it was utilized deliberately just to decide if I was a virgin or not?
All things considered, I was in a dream arrive around then and couldn’t think this much since I needed to experience each delightful snapshot of this night which could never come back again in my life. Also, now after that alarming occurrence, I wish that it had never come.
I was imagining about him with open eyes and simply then he came. I had the main sex of my life and it was for sure agonizing however there was a joy in that agony as well.
After the intercourse, I went to washroom and when I returned, I saw bed sheet in his grasp. He was searching for something in outrage however I couldn’t get it. He hollered at me and said that I misled him. Despite everything I didn’t get anything and after that what he said trembled my spirit,
“There’s no blood stain in the bed sheet which proves that you are not a virgin and you have already given my right to some other man. You have no place in my life now and like this bed sheet which is telling the saga of your betrayal, your life is going to be colourless as I am giving you divorce.”
I was so stunned subsequent to becoming acquainted with his bias that I couldn’t express a word. I was broken and could see my reality shattering before my eyes, the world which had all the earmarks of being loaded with shades of sentiment and love couple of hours prior. I oversaw myself and attempted to state something however he didn’t allow me to talk. I cried sea of tears and despite the fact that I envisioned my life to change after marriage, I never knew it will change to such a degree, to the point that it will grab grin from my face until the end of time.
I came back to my home and got separated after some time. He got hitched to some other lady however now there’s no place for any man in my life. That unnerving occurrence is especially alive in my psyche and my evenings are as yet restless as alarming recollections of my first sex frequent me even today.
Indeed, even Science has asserted that a lady won’t not seep on her first night and there may be numerous explanations behind it other than sex before marriage. Be that as it may, you can’t change a few people’s attitude and the pitiful incongruity is that despite the fact that we claim to be produced, we have not created by any means.